walking on a dream, chasing shooting stars

Truth be told… I can’t. I can’t because you’re still too real to me.

Fri, 24 May 2013 03:37:28 -0700

Truth be told… I can’t. I can’t because you’re still too real to me.

it’s so prettyyy <333

Fri, 24 May 2013 02:15:13 -0700

it’s so prettyyy <333

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Thu, 23 May 2013 20:07:12 -0700

It’s fleeting… the memory and glimpses of it all. I remember sitting in a dark and...

Thu, 23 May 2013 01:55:00 -0700

It’s fleeting… the memory and glimpses of it all.

I remember sitting in a dark and empty room well after hours, the quiet calm putting my mind at ease. No one came in to interrupt the moment, no one was around. They were all either asleep or out and about… and I was alone, alone in a room I had darkened myself.

However, as lonesome as it seemed, I wasn’t lonely. I wasn’t lonely because before me, through windows way up high, was the breathtaking blur of the infinite city lights. My favorite view, as I still remember today. There was so much possibility, so much life, so much… hope within those city lights. I couldn’t help but feel both the tiny spark within my heart and the resounding peacefulness within my mind.

I remember thinking about you, wondering if you were at your own window, looking out into a different but equally spectacular view, thinking the same things as me. Things were so new, so exciting, so… real. You sparked something in me, a connection I’ve never felt before… an understanding that never was, an aching that became all too real.

The memory fades away. This time, we’re walking through empty streets. Me, pretending to know my way around, and you, smiling and playing along. Nervous as I was before the night began, it all gave way into an indescribable sense of ease… A sense that… I don’t know. It couldn’t have been real, it must have been a dream. The blur of it all, holding your hand…

I’m on a train, anxiously counting down the stops, heart skipping as every passing glance out the window took me closer to you. Heart stopping as the train pulled in, knowing that you were right there… Truth be told, I don’t even clearly remember the first time I visited you.

But I remember the last. The nights. The morning. The sunset.

—-

I’m sitting in a darkened room, but now, no view greets me. No thoughts cloud my mind. No spark, no ache control my heart. All I have now is memories, just memories passing by. Memories of a different time, of a different me, of a different life. Memories that’ll forever be just glimpses.

No feelings, just memories.

…….where is this and why haven’t I seen this...

Thu, 23 May 2013 00:58:56 -0700

…….where is this and why haven’t I seen this before ;-; must. find.

Soundtrack from To Those Nights :)

Thu, 23 May 2013 00:51:00 -0700

Soundtrack from To Those Nights :)

So chill. Loving the beat and the vocals :)

Wed, 22 May 2013 23:17:51 -0700

So chill. Loving the beat and the vocals :)

:)

Wed, 22 May 2013 00:30:34 -0700

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Tue, 21 May 2013 21:05:13 -0700

Pretty sick remix! :)

Tue, 21 May 2013 20:10:58 -0700

Pretty sick remix! :)

…haha >_>

Sun, 19 May 2013 23:08:12 -0700

…haha >_>

GT-R Runs up a Snow Covered Mountain This is just too amazing....

Sun, 19 May 2013 21:34:01 -0700

GT-R Runs up a Snow Covered Mountain

This is just too amazing. The car, the settings, the cinematography… :)

Patrick Packing’s piece today was so sick! I wasn’t...

Sun, 19 May 2013 21:07:38 -0700

Patrick Packing’s piece today was so sick! I wasn’t all that great at it, but I really appreciated the style and enjoyed it a lot, especially because it’s been an entire year since I last learned a piece :)

Christine Ha on Master Chef - Apple Pie Challenge I really...

Sun, 19 May 2013 02:51:25 -0700

Christine Ha on Master Chef - Apple Pie Challenge

I really needed this after watching the Amy’s Baking Company nonsense.

TEARS. EVERY. TIME. T____T I believe in humanity again.

Hiiipower: the three i’s represent heart, honor and respect....

Sat, 18 May 2013 15:19:03 -0700

Hiiipower: the three i’s represent heart, honor and respect. That’s how we carry ourselves in the streets, and just in the world, period. Hiiipower, it basically is the simplest form of representing just being above all the madness, all the bullshit. No matter what the world is going through, you’re always going to keep your dignity and carry yourself with this manner that it don’t phase you. Whatever you think negative is in your life. Overcoming that and still having that self-respect.

- Kendrick Lamar

I woke up to a rattling at the front of the house, as if someone was trying to force their way...

Sat, 18 May 2013 13:33:28 -0700

I woke up to a rattling at the front of the house, as if someone was trying to force their way through the door. As I walked down corridors that I had never seen before, I noticed that it was daytime outside. Still, a slight sense of dread overcame me when I noticed that the door handle to the front door was shaking violently. Someone was trying to get inside the house. Rather, something was trying to get in the house. I was convinced that it wasn’t a real person but rather something supernatural trying to get in.

I didn’t really have time to decide though, because soon the door lock started to turn. Instinctively, I held on to the door lock and turned it back, fighting to keep it locked while whatever was behind the door was trying to unlock it. Normally, this would be the point where I’d wake up from a nightmare, feeling defeated and hopeless. But this time, I stayed there. Somehow, I felt a strange sense of power in being able to hold off whatever was behind the door, and it wasn’t going away.

Eventually, however, after struggling with the unknown, I let go and stood back, letting the door slowly unlock. As that happened, the door slowly swung inwards, revealing…

…nothing. There was nothing on the other side of the door, except for another open door. This door had swung open outwards, opening out into an old-looking walkway that led towards an amazing view, but as I took my first step outside, my alarm woke me up.

You know, to me, sometimes it seems silly trying to explain dreams and find some deeper meaning about yourself. But taking this dream strictly as it is: a somewhat unrealistic sequence of events, and not some deeper portal into my mind, maybe, sometimes we fight too hard trying to keep the unknown out. Instead, we unknowingly end up locking ourselves in, keeping us from seeing what lies beyond the walls we make for ourselves. It wasn’t until I let go and let it through that I found my open door, and were it not for my alarm, I would have stepped through that door and seen what that path had in store for me.

Regretful, yes, but an interesting morning dream nonetheless.

Common Ground at Fusion XIII Gah. Watching their Paris-themed...

Fri, 17 May 2013 01:50:00 -0700

Common Ground at Fusion XIII

Gah. Watching their Paris-themed set makes me happy :)

Use Me - Miguel, Aggie Loyola When you know it’s...

Wed, 15 May 2013 23:27:00 -0700

Use Me - Miguel, Aggie Loyola

When you know it’s potentially everything you want it all feels so surreal, yet at the same time things seem too good to be true. In the end you go for it anyway because the journey itself is what feeds your happiness and what makes it worthwhile, and the mystery of not knowing what happens next is the risk you take.

Capital Cities - Safe and Sound The song itself is pretty good,...

Wed, 15 May 2013 22:32:13 -0700

Capital Cities - Safe and Sound

The song itself is pretty good, but I’m really digging the chronological juxtaposition of dance and war footage from the past 100 years or so. It’s strange, but I like it.

First thing I’m gonna do when I get my car is to take a...

Wed, 15 May 2013 01:12:51 -0700

First thing I’m gonna do when I get my car is to take a late night/early morning drive up Mulholland Dr and catch the sun rising over Downtown LA :) Sigh, I really cannot wait.